A Morning of Creepy Critters

The other morning I had an adventure with my cats...

This morning I had a run in with a giant bee. Inside my house. Stuck in a spider's web. One such spider that had caused me grief two days prior.  Why is this happening to me?

Last Thursday I spotted a huge, nasty spider in a window of my house.  Since my mission I have become very sensitive to the preservation of life and I struggle killing anything.  I really wanted to catch the spider and put it outside, but had a feeling that it would just find its way back in again.  I contemplated what I was going to do when I lost the thing.  Taking that as a sign from Heavenly Father, I went back to my studies and forgot about him.  The next day I spotted him in a window adjacent to his origin.  Realizing how big and gross he was, I knew I needed to get him out of the house.

I finally got the nerve to catch him in a cup.  There he sat for two more days as I weighed my options, and life got busy and I kind of forgot.  I was torn about his future though and knew that most people would find me crazy for even considering his life, and that was the caused my hang up. I was too worried about what others would do in this situation rather then just doing what I would do.  I wanted him to live so I finally took him outside to the fence-line and let him go.  I felt good with my decision afterwards.

This morning, I left the door open for a few minutes and in flies a big bee! My mom has flower printed couches and they drew the poor thing right in.  It flew around for a moment while I nervously circled, hoping to persuade it out but to no avail.  It finally settled in the same window the spider had last resided. And there it found his web...

He was stuck for a moment but has since freed himself and hopefully I can usher him outside soon enough.

Through these experiences, I was shocked with my inability to make a decision because of my worry of what others would do.  I was scared to be foolish and wanted to make the right decision to "solve" my problem.  I realized how influenced I am by the desire to be right and smart in the eyes of the world.  My new resolve, to worry less about that and focus more on how I want to live my life and clear that path with God.